3113) I cry all the time and I don't know why. At first glance you would perceive me to be such a happy and well put together person but that's not the case. Inside I am in shambles and I have no way of telling anyone how I feel because as soon as I try to I crawl back into my shell. I don't hate myself. I just hate how I feel and how I don't know why I feel this way. I don't know who can help me or if anyone can. I have problems, everyone has problems. I just want to stop talking forever but society forbids it. Life forbids it.
The days when we talk for hours. We are young; we have super powers. we kiss the sky expand our minds, think we can fly. we are dreamers and we never die. were young punks but we show potential us against the world, we aren’t sentimental. we aren’t our problems, our age or our paychecks, we we won’t take anybody’s shit.
The winter is cold but we have our living rooms this underground is for sinners, and we embrace it. magic pills, fairy tales, we all get on that spaceship. we measure our lives in coffee spoons and our Friday nights quickly turn into Sunday afternoons we aren’t our money, our muscles or our regrets we’re just having a mere life experience.
Looking around and realizing how happy you are seeing friends you love beside you laughing being able to laugh with them.. being able to have someone who I don’t need to try to laugh with. then crying because all you want is someone else to be there with you, being able to cry on there shoulders, literally. "You think you’re gonna chill in your dark ass kitchen alone? no.”
I’m not worried about falling and breaking, I’m used to that. I’m worried you’ll hear every last whisper inside my head I’m worried you’ll hear it all, and that you’ll understand. that You’ll understand and instantly wish you didn’t. That’s what keeps me up at night. that and you’re god damn smile.
Yeah, but it’s okay because I already knew, I’ve known for a while. and i instantly understood. all of it. that’s what keeps me up at night, and what puts that god damn smile on my face.